Yesterday , after be off work to home .

He call me . we talked with each other for a long time from work to mood and business aim and hobby.

He asked me :" what are you doing now "?

I told him :" i am reading ".

Then we talked about read . and he asked :" what kind of book do you like to read "?

I said :" i like to read i am interesting ".

He told me that he has many books and told me i can read any one in the future and rencent he is reading "唐峻自传".

He suggest me to learn some other languge .for example: Franch, German and so on .

and he said he want to go to shanghai tongji college to learn German . but regret that he is not free because of business .

he also told me that he will be plan to live oversea in the future forever .

I strongly feel that my knowledge is so poor and need  to learn more .

He advice me to spent money to learn something . i said :" i have no enough money now ".

I fell a strong sense of crisis on me through talking with him . I am despressed . i am not sure if i will continue to get along with him . even i dot want to do it now and never contact with him from now on . I think i am enough strong all the same . i am wrong . It is better if i have experience of love .maybe i will know how to do it . What can i do ?Depressed !I afraid i will meet a man who is not love me and bad for me .